I Bid Adieu

It was a vast, grey road that separated us,
A crosswalk that determined our fate
Her hair was beyond the usual today,
As it was scrunched up in a bun,
Held together by a black ribbon
It was as though it symbolized
The grief she was holding back
Concealing from the world around her
But that was no more
After today, once I deliver my life-altering news to her,
Happiness will no longer
Be a stranger in her heart.

This was an awfully excruciating wait
From red to white,
Stop to walk -
I couldn't wait any longer!
Yet, after all the rehearsals I've perfected,
I still grew slightly skeptical as to how this would turn out -
Was it too late?
Would my revelation be at least,
A good thing for her?

She happened to look up,
And as she did so,
Our eyes met
She caught a glimpse of me -
The comfort and relief of just seeing me dominating over the grief I caused
Her eyes lit up
They did so in a way that
Told me she adored me,
That she depended on me
My heart, my pulse -
They raced, palpitated
I wanted to let her know
I was ready to take her hand and risk it all,
And the next thing I knew,
I was crossing the street without a care in the world,
Just my eyes directed on hers...

I was walking with a purpose.

But a slight change in her expression brought me back to reality,
And suddenly I was once again aware of everything else
The grief in her eyes
Smacked me across the face
And I jolted from where I stood,
Now halfway down the path
She yelled out, "LOOK OUT!"
And I decided to look over,
As a speeding car was headed straight in my direction

Darkness.

I died in her arms tonight.
I died in the arms of the woman I loved,
The woman who took a risk for me before,
The woman who was never once afraid to wear her heart on a sleeve,
That same woman who I never got the opportunity to say,
Je t'aime.
Te amo.
I love you in several different languages. Because at that point,
It became clear to me that I did.

I died in her arms tonight,
And I drowned in her tears,
My love unknown to her,
Unsaid.